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Forging New Paths

If you follow my blog, then it is likely that you are already familiar with the fact that I follow a multitude of paths, each inspired by different Gods. While I highly respect all the Gods, I have forged close bonds with Odin, Loki, Tyr, Freyr, Freyja, and Sigyn over the last few years.

However, it seems like the closer I get to these Gods, the more I find myself drawn into the other realms to help with certain situations. I’ve met Njord and Ran and helped them with a certain project in Vanaheim. I’ve heard others describe Odin as a stern and severe character, but He pales in comparison to Njord. Ran seems to be more of the stern grandmother type, too. Perhaps it is the fact that both of them are sea deities and Odin is a sky deity. I can really only speculate. So I am slowly developing a relationship with Njord and Ran while helping with Their project (which I’m really not at liberty to discuss, so I apologize for the vagueness here).

Ullr and Mani have also become more prominent in my life. Ullr is perhaps the oldest deity of the Norse pantheon; He certainly feels ancient, and His patience seems unending. Ullr seems to have His hands in everything – rather than being a deity of a particular element, He strikes me as a deity of guidance. Essentially, I get the sense that He is sort of a compass type of deity – a God you turn to when you aren’t really sure what comes next on your path.

Mani, the God of the Moon, seems to be a God of very deep emotion and He seems exceedingly kind and full of melancholy. I was drawn to Him through some of the artwork I’ve seen, and His aura pulled at me. He is very similar to Loki except that Mani feels more like the deep currents of the ocean (which makes sense, since the moon does control the ebb and flow of the ocean tides) and Loki feels like lava erupting from a volcano. I feel like They complement each other well, and I get the sense that there is some history between Them.

Loki is still very much active in my life. In some ways, though, it feels like Loki is less active than He used to be, but I think it’s really just that I have adjusted to the way life changes constantly for me because of His influence. My sister and her boyfriend moved back home (Loki is the reason they moved out originally, so I am confident that the reason they are back is because Loki thinks I can handle them being around now). My job is shifting too – not only am I working as an administrative assistant at my college but I am also now working as a Spanish tutor.

I think what I am personally having trouble embracing is the stable nature of my life right now. Part of me keeps waiting for things to turn into chaos – a state I’m used to dealing with – while the rest of me is content. I think that Mani and Ullr in particular have come into my life at this point because They can help me understand how to deal with life when it isn’t completely chaotic. I’m sure it seems strange that I am more at ease when chaos defines my life than when it doesn’t, but I think that’s one of the reasons I can walk Loki’s path without feeling like my life is being torn apart.